Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Today, I Was Not The Best Mother.

Today, I was not the best mother.  


I yelled and I screamed on more than one occasion. I lost my temper and my cool and of course, I regretted it immediately. 


On the third attempt at a nap, I sat and cried while holding my son. But only after I had plainly stated to him that I was so mad he wasn't listening to his Mama, as he started up at me with those huge, bright blue eyes. 


I begged and pleaded with my 16 month old to please. just. nap.


Earlier in the day, I forgot to run the most important errand on my list because I was in the middle of having an argument with my husband via text message in the parking lot of the grocery store. I was seeing red so terribly that I lost all train of thought and drove straight home.


I cursed. A lot.


And then? I blamed him for making me forget to run the day's most important errand. It wasn't his fault. But I needed to blame someone. 


Today, I was not the best wife either. 


I should be thankful that these kinds of days really only find me few and far between but that doesn't mean that when they do sneak up on me that they don't royally suck. I can't stand when I'm knowingly acting like a lesser version of my best self. My nicest self. My most patient self. 


I hate these kinds of days and I'm hoping and hanging onto a shred of wishful thinking that tomorrow will undoubtedly be better. 


43 comments :

  1. I think we have all been there friend...make us more human. And for those who have never had those days...I question their truthfulness. Hope your day gets better:-)

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  2. Hope your day gets better girl. We all have these moments for sure. Sometimes life just gets the best of us. Tomorrow is another day!

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  3. Bless it! Although, I'm so glad to know that I'm not the only one that has crappy days like that. We all know you're a great mom and wife, sometimes we just have meltdowns. And that's ok! Head up, tomorrow will be better!!!

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  4. Friend, it happens. I cry when I think of the most recent day I was not the best mother. CRY. But we're human and we fail - thankfully, God's grace never fails us!

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  5. Babe! Tomorrow will be better! I'm certain of it. I wish I could offer you a big huge hug! I'm sorry it's been a rough day. We all have days like this, so just know you are NOT alone. I hope to goodness that the night gets better and you find some smiles in this day! Love you girl!

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  6. Can I just say thank you for writing this post! Some days I'm not the best mom, wife, daughter, or friend. I hope your day gets better :-D

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  7. At least your arguments with your husband are via text and not screaming matches via phone in your office filled with your boss - Like happened to me recently ... Glad they are only few and far between .. But it makes the rest of the days SO much better :) If you didnt have DOWNS you would never have UPS and mediocre is never any fun :) Hope your day and week get better!

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  8. Hopefully your day will turn around. We have all been there and have had days that we wish we could take back or do-over. Days like this make us cherish those better ones so much more:) Or just go into a room by yourself and scream. That should help you feel better!

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  9. you're singing my song, sister!

    I hate those days too. Been there.

    And yeah, the 16month old girl in my house tests my patience...A LOT.

    Hope your day gets better.

    I forgot milk and tampons while I was out as a result of similar issues. haha

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  10. Cheer up buttercup! You do SO much and sometimes you just can't do it all. Bad days are inevitable but coming out of them alive is what counts. You are allowed to be less than perfect every once in a while.

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  11. I think we all have those days...nothing goes right and nothing anyone says makes it better.

    there is always tomorrow!

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  12. Mama,friend- you are HUMAN!!! C will not recall this rare occasion and I'm sure the hubs will forget it as soon as he sees your pretty face! I feel your pain and hope your evening is better than the day was and that tmrw starts anew- I'm here for you!! Xoxoox

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  13. I was just telling another mom today that I have been a bad mom the last few weeks. I got so mad at Sawyer 2 nights ago since he would night sit still in front of our Christmas tree and smile so that we could take our Christmas card photo. I was so mad that my husband had to do the bedtime routine, which I normally do. I feel horrible now, but today is a new day!

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  14. Totally been there. Especially the argument via text thing - always makes you feel real classy. Ha.

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  15. tomorrow will be better.

    try to not be too hard on yourself. You're only human...and sometimes we aren't our best selves.

    All we can do...is do better. :-)

    Love your honesty. We have all been there.

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  16. Sorry if this is a dupe..it did not tell me if this went through! If you got my first comment, you can delete this one!

    Sadly, I admit to having these days as well, AP, and always feel like I've let Tommy down when it happens to me. But we are only human...sometimes we think we are super mom, but some days we need that slap in the face to remind us we can't do it all. Have an adult beverage tonight!

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  17. my older 2 kids now laugh at my meltdowns. LAUGH at me! Like while I am in the middle of throwing dirty clothes (ok maybe clean) all over the place or taking dirty dishes up to their bedrooms because they left them on the table for the millionth time.
    I have text message fights with the boyfriend all the time. They still love me and I hope their therapists get paid well when they are adults :-)

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  18. oh and I hope tonight goes better and that tomorrow is the best!

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  19. AP, I could have written this post. I’ve so been there. I was there last night, actually.

    From one mama of a No-Nap Toddler to another … hang in there. Tomorrow will be a better day … and if not, the chardonnay’s in the fridge. ;) xo

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  20. We've all been there. I hope your day gets better!

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  21. Oh my gosh, tomorrow WILL be better. Some days are just totally crappy but it makes us realize how many good ones we have. You are NOT a bad mom and wife...we all get free passes sometimes! :)

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  22. All Mamma's have their days. Today was just one of yours. It's not a bad thing. And it doesn't mean that you are a bad Mom. You do a great job! And your little man is just adorable!

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  23. I had the same kind of day:) I failed as a mother and a wife! I'm a new reader...just found your blog today! Looking forward to reading!

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  24. I love your honesty. Life isn't perfect, and I hate bloggers who blog that it is! It's why I love reading your blog! Have a better day tomorrow!

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  25. Bad days suck. Period. It doesn't make you a bad mom, or a bad wife, it means you're human. And that you need an extra large glass of chardonnay. The best part about having bad days? You got this one over with, and the next one is far, far away.

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  26. these days will happen. they suck. You also are not a bad mom or wife! Pick yourself back up and enjoy some wine :)

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  27. Oh girl, sorry to hear about your bad day. Just think C just wanted to spend time with his mama thats why he didnt want to nap. He just loves you so much :)

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  28. Ah. If everyone were perfect, there wouldn't be erasers. I have had my days like this as well, and even though it may not seem that tomorrow will get better..it totally does. Chin up! Enjoy a glass of wine and hopefully some good make up se...err...don't wanna be too inappropriate here. ;)

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  29. I'm glad you posted this! It makes me feel better about the times I lay on top of O and try to force him to nap, while he screams in protest ;).

    I am drinking a Chardonnay for you!

    (HUGS)

    -d

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  30. I have these days kind of often (worlds worst mother here). The good thing is, toddlers have the memory of a flea most of the time so he'll never remember. And the hubs' memory can be fixed pretty quick. ;-) shake it off lady. We all have these days. Thank goodness for tomorrow!

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  31. Hope today was better! I am so glad that I am not the only one who has these kinds of days. You are a great mom and wife...and that's all that matters :).

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  32. I'm not a mom, but I have had that kind of week as well - but I finally had a good afternoon! Here's hoping tomorrow is a great one for you!

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  33. Oh man, you should read my post from yesterday! My two year old opened the door to a stranger without any pants on....while I was in the shower. Fun times. Dont beat yourself up, I swear being a mom is just a major guilt sentence. I feel guilty all the time. You are human. We all have bad days. I am right there with you :)

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  34. Everyone has their moments. It's understandable. The important thing is you've realized it and are moving on :)

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  35. I'm sorry about your bad day. We all have those - don't beat yourself up over it! You are an awesome wife and momma!

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  36. And this is why I love reading your blog. I love your honesty and the fact that you don't sugar coat anything. I hope you have a better day today!

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  37. That's the thing about being a mommy. They love us at our best and they love us at our worst. <3

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  38. So sorry you had a bad day:( But don't worry, you are definitely not alone! More of my days look like this recently than not....please, I'm lost my temper and yelled at the baby...like she even knows what's going on. Hope tomorrow{well today} is better for you!

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  39. Thanks for being so honest. It's so refreashing! Don't worry mama we all have off days. Don't be so hard on yourself. Today is a new day to make things right!

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  40. I could write this post almost every single day, my friend. We're all there with you. Hoping today is going better for you. xox lover.

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  41. I don't have kids but I imagine that it's part of it! Hope your day gets better!

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  42. I'm completely late to the game here, but I hope the week has gotten better! At least the hubs has brought in take-out twice this week now :)

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