I need a plan. I thrive on plans. You can most definitely say that I am "plan obsessed." Plans and pregnancy, however, although both beginning with the letter "P," pretty much have nothing else in common.
I write lists. I mercilessly fill out calendars. In pencil of course, because we all know things can change. And nobody likes a messy agenda. I am the queen of post-it notes.
Knowing this, I'm sure you can imagine how difficult it is to "let go" during one's pregnancy, such as my own. Everything is out of your control. And what is within your control? You cling to like Linus clings to his blankey.
Here I am. 38 weeks pregnant. Armed with the knowledge that Baby Boy is STILL not fully in the correct position for birth. Armed with the knowledge that I'm very quickly approaching the end of my pregnancy. Armed with the knowledge that without a recent growth scan, no one even knows if Baby Boy is small enough to fit through my pelvis. Granted, I've been reassured time and time again that with a "normal, uncomplicated pregnancy" such as my own, it's standard not to perform a "growth scan" in the third trimester. Especially since my belly has been measuring on target, albeit a week ahead, since the beginning. But then why do I have this nagging feeling that Baby Boy just cannot properly engage his head?
Somebody needs to get this kid a GPS so that he'll disengage his head from my right hip and engage it in my pelvis where it belongs.
Here I am. Armed with the knowledge that going into spontaneous labor without Baby Boy's head (or butt) engaged in my pelvis, I run the risk of running into a nasty little situation known as "cord prolapse" where the umbilical cord slips through before baby, often compressing itself, completely blocking circulation and oxygen supply to Baby Boy.
Like I said, I need a plan.
I have a doctor's appointment in a few short hours. I've done my research and dug up what little medical knowledge I had tucked away from my L&D clinical back in college. My goal is to have an honest, educated discussion with Dr. Silver Fox today and walk out of his office with... a plan.
Wish me luck and pray that I find the answers I'm hoping for!